Complex Back Track: Security

I think I am going to take my time to dedicate this post to all the women in the world. This topic is soley a part of our daily lives single, married, divorced, separated, lesbian or whatever. Golddigging vs Security.

Well, in my world. I like to brandish my type as looking for security. I have my own job, my own place, car, etc etc. I am 25 and single with no kids. Thats pretty damn good. I clear a sizeable and comfortable income along with a sturdy savings to care for myself and I live within my own means. So what's wrong with looking for a man to help stabilize my life? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Some like to think its Golddigging. That word make my ears hurt everytime I hear it. Especially when its referring to a woman who already had her own. I mean, why would I want a man that can only do what I can do or maybe even less? Sure two incomes or better than one, but these days ego and pride becomes a bigger "breakup" factor than anything now. I am ol' skool and believe that a man is the breadwinner in a relationship/ marriage. Be it he makes thousands more or just a couple hundred. Thats how its suppose to be in my mind. Thats how I was raised.

Now, I do believe that there are Golddiggers out there. WOOOWEE. Yes there is. These women look thirsty. Not just with their fashions, but with their confidence levels. They portray a lifestyle that they do not live. They look for men, only ballers tickle their fancy. They honestly dont care about having any kind of relationship with a man, they just wanna spend money or shit some even only wanna be seen. Most are looking for the athletes and music artists. No more dopedealers. That was so 10 years ago. They go to any and every extreme to attend all events and travel across the states to try and catch the eye of a paid man. Their only concern in life is what they are going to buy with the money they got and who's next in line.

Sure, we beautiful women deserve the man of our dreams. Some of us have them, some of us dont. Some of us feel like we are the women of their dreams. I have had my share of "ballers". Honestly some give, some dont. Some of the one's who give, give generously. The others, well, eh.

Dont get me wrong, I am for the fun and shopping and sharing with the girlfriends and dating and doing whatever the hell you want. But when its time to get serious, no more games. There are men out there, looking for the same exact qualities as you. He wants to share all of himself and his possessions with you. No questions asked. He is looking forward to that. He too wants a woman holding it down on her own and if push comes to shove and he hits rock bottom you can take care until he gets back up. Not someone that when all the money is gone, the clubbing and the being seen stops...will pack up and leave.

And what's so wrong with a man who can just pay his bills and help contribute to the ones you accumulate together? I mean, he's not asking you for anything that you weren't doing before him, right?

Your thoughts, please?

Complex Repost: Independency in Vegas

I am reposting this entry because around this time next week, I'll be committing sin in Vegas, again. Back in June 2009 I took my first trip to Sin City, it was also my first trip ALONE. I found a sense of peace, happiness, and I also realized how sexy I am, with or without friends. Monumental.

"Please don't slap me with a wet dildo. Sure I been gone way to long, but I was only up to my hoodrat and hoesh** shenanigans. I been a lot of places in the last few weeks. Some physically and some mentally. But this feature will be of my cuntin' all by my lonesome in Las Vegas. (Don't Judge) Its' bad enough I got some family that thinks I went all Britney Spears or some sh**. I just went to clear my head. Hell. I lie. I went to have a f***in good time all by myself. I didnt invite a soul to come along. "Fine, you wanna come, you can come. But if you dont, it aint stoppin me." One monkey dont stop no show. Sh**, when you get tired of waiting on people to do what you wanna do, you go start saying "F*** you, Im goin'" too. Check out the pix BAYBAYYYYYY!!!"

And yes I did strap on my Come f*** me dress, Louboutins, and vintage Chanel clutch, hop in a sleazy cab and headed over to Pure in Caesars Palace. Alone.

And yes I was askin random folk to "Take a picture of me, please? Merci & Gracias".

And yes I waited for 3.5 hours total waiting for the water show at Bellagio. And no I still never saw it.

And yes I was sunbathing until that Bamma mofo you see in the left hand corner came talkin my head off. SECURITY!!

And yes my hotel was the Sh**!!!

Complex RePost: Heathens and Jezebels

While at work yesterday, I noticed a coworker wearing a Rosary. Me being a devout Catholic, I immediately questioned "Is your rosary blessed?". My response was just a head nod. Cool. I do not know the religious background of this character, nor did I care to ask at that time, but it did get my wheels spinning.

I have been noticing many jewelry pieces being worn by many, many people and I'm like, "Damn, I aint seen all these black people in a Catholic church all my life." Damn shame, I know. And half of them can't even tell you 1 of the 20 Mysteries of the Rosary.

Now, I do not at all claim to be a Saint nor "Holy than Thou", but I do believe strongly in my Catholic devotions and sacrements. I have worn a scalpular since December 2007, when my mother fell ill and out entire family got them blessed by Father Joseph of Sacred Heart in Lake Charles, La. I wear this 24/7, even when it does not "match" anything that I am wearing. It is not meant to match your garments, its meant for worship. I firmly stand on my opinion that if you do not believe in the Prayer of the Rosary you shouldnt be donning rosary beads or a scalpular. I see this as being disrespectful.

I hate even discussing religion because there are so many views and honestly I find it dispectful and tasteless to question someone elses religious beliefs, so understand I am not arguing, I am stating my opinion.

This is an article I picked up over at wikipedia:

"Wearing of a Rosary that one actually uses to pray is neither uncommon nor sacrilegious in various Roman Catholic-adherent cultures and was a common practice in the Medieval and Renaissance periods, particularly among religious (monks, nuns, and friars). Rosaries are also worn hanging from or looped over a belt, particularly with some religious habits, pinned to and hanging from a shoulder or neckline, or wrapped around a wrist or arm as a bracelet. Some Christians feel that it is sacrilegious for a non-believer to wear a rosary around the neck. This is particularly true in Roman Catholic cultures that have histories of persecution, particularly among the Irish and English Catholics. Because Irish Catholic tradition is often seen as normative in the United States and Canada, this has been the source of some conflict in the past. The Roman Catholic Church states: "Sacred objects, set aside for divine worship by dedication or blessing, are to be treated with reverence. They are not to be made over to secular or inappropriate use, even though they may belong to private persons".[55] Thus it is acceptable to wear a rosary if one is doing so to show veneration, however it is not acceptable if one is wearing the rosary irreverently, such as wearing it as a piece of jewelry. Many saints have worn their rosary around the neck, and in the Secret of the Rosary, it is mentioned that a person put his rosary around his neck to keep devils away from him.

Rosaries or rosary-like necklaces are often worn for non-religious purposes as a fashion or jewelry item, and are sold in different variations in popular jewelry and clothing stores. Such ornamental use, especially the wearing of a rosary around the neck, was heavily popularized by singer Madonna in the early 1980s and has experienced a come-back in recent years. Wearing a rosary around the neck can be considered disrespectful if the person wearing it does not affiliate with the Christian religion. Ornate or medieval-style rosary sets are occasionally featured in goth fashion."

What do you think?